Best Friend....

Happy 21st Birthday To My Best Friend......

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY TO MY BESTEST FRIEND IN THE WORLD!!! 

Me and you have been through everything together and I loovve you soo much. Wish I could have been there to celebrate with you, but when im home we will have our own celebration! Love you BB girl!

Heart's Do Break.....

Every time I see you with her, I seriously wanna stab myself in the eyes with the nearest pen. An your PDA makes me wanna throw up. Don't get me wrong I like her and think she's a really nice person, but it kills me inside to watch you two. You're happy, which makes me happy, I just wish the situation were different. You tell me that you love me and that we are life long friends, and that you want to know my kids and want me to know yours kids. And I do, i really do.... maybe its not fair for me to feel this way, but it's just how i feel. I need to find something or someone to take my mind off you, and help me to move on... i love you i do and i love our friendship, so I don't want to do anything to screw that up.

New Years Eve......

Well all its been a long time, and you're gunna have to wait even longer cuz this is gunna be brief. Christmas was amazing, fantastic, wonderful!! haha. 

Tonight it  New Years Eve, im just about to head up to Canmore with Jessica and Madison (looooove roadtrips with jess' ipod haha). We going to be meeting Tan Tan up there and staying in a hotel for the night. Should be a good night, hopefully a good drunk ass night =) haha.

But anywho thats all for now. 

Happy New Years Everyone!!!!!! 

Be Safe and Have Fun!!

miss you....

Even Though You Haven't Gone Anywhere, I Miss Who You Used To Be.

you're not sorry....

I would give the world for you... and you know that. I treat you with respect and love and try to put a smile on your face, but now im done. Im done being your punching bag, the one whom you treat like junk, but then treat like gold when you need something, or someone. Im done having you call me names and yell at me. Im done being thrown aside for other people but then being top notch when they aren't around. Im sorry means nothing anymore. Im sorry has lost all meaning in the sense of this relationship. This friendship was not supposed to be a convience friendship for you, i wasn't meant to be someone you could walk all over and still be treated good. However that is what it has become and i have got enough footprints all over me. This doesn't mean we cant be friends anymore and this doesn't mean i wont say hi. This means that im done treating you like number one, i don't wanna be used anymore... i just want you to appreciate me for me. Maybe one day you'll see me for me and appreciate what it is i try doing for you.

"All this time i was wasting, hoping you would come around.

I've been giving out chances everytime and all you do is let me down.

It's taking me this long, baby but i've figured you out.

You think it will be fine again but not this time around.

You don't have to call anymore, i won't pick up the phone

This is the last straw, don't wanna hurt anymore.

And you can tell me that you’re sorry
But I won’t believe you baby like I did before
You’re not sorry no more, no more, no

Lookin’ so innocent
I might believe you if I didn’t know
Could’a loved you all my life
If you hadn’t left me waiting in the cold
And you got your share of secrets
And I’m tired of being last to know
And now you’re asking me to listen
Cuz its worked each time before

But you don’t have to call anymore
I won’t pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don’t want to hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you’re sorry
But I don’t believe you baby like I did before
You’re not sorry no no no noo
You’re not sorry no no no noo

You had me calling for you honey
And it never would’ve gone away no
You use to shine so bright
But I watched our love it fade

So you don’t have to call anymore
I won’t pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There’s nothing left to beg for
And you can tell me that you’re sorry
But I won’t believe you baby like I did before."