11.25.2009

you're not sorry....


I would give the world for you... and you know that. I treat you with respect and love and try to put a smile on your face, but now im done. Im done being your punching bag, the one whom you treat like junk, but then treat like gold when you need something, or someone. Im done having you call me names and yell at me. Im done being thrown aside for other people but then being top notch when they aren't around. Im sorry means nothing anymore. Im sorry has lost all meaning in the sense of this relationship. This friendship was not supposed to be a convience friendship for you, i wasn't meant to be someone you could walk all over and still be treated good. However that is what it has become and i have got enough footprints all over me. This doesn't mean we cant be friends anymore and this doesn't mean i wont say hi. This means that im done treating you like number one, i don't wanna be used anymore... i just want you to appreciate me for me. Maybe one day you'll see me for me and appreciate what it is i try doing for you.

"All this time i was wasting, hoping you would come around.
I've been giving out chances everytime and all you do is let me down.
It's taking me this long, baby but i've figured you out.
You think it will be fine again but not this time around.

You don't have to call anymore, i won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw, don't wanna hurt anymore.
And you can tell me that you’re sorry
But I won’t believe you baby like I did before
You’re not sorry no more, no more, no

Lookin’ so innocent
I might believe you if I didn’t know
Could’a loved you all my life
If you hadn’t left me waiting in the cold
And you got your share of secrets
And I’m tired of being last to know
And now you’re asking me to listen
Cuz its worked each time before

But you don’t have to call anymore
I won’t pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don’t want to hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you’re sorry
But I don’t believe you baby like I did before
You’re not sorry no no no noo
You’re not sorry no no no noo

You had me calling for you honey
And it never would’ve gone away no
You use to shine so bright
But I watched our love it fade

So you don’t have to call anymore
I won’t pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There’s nothing left to beg for
And you can tell me that you’re sorry
But I won’t believe you baby like I did before."

11.24.2009

big, small, pink, purple


Have you ever got that feeling, that you're going to be alone forever? That you're just not pretty enough, smart enough, skinny enough, or tanned enough? That feeling that no one is ever going to want to be with you, or hold you, or tell you they love you... just because you're not perfect? I'm sure you have, we all have.
Love comes in all shapes and sizes. Whether they be black, white, tall, or short. Whether they like hockey, soccer, tennis, or chess. Love comes from within, and love overpowers all of ones flaws. When someone loves you they look past your imperfections, and look to who you truly are. For all you non-believers, wait it out and you'll see it has been worth the wait. When you're lucky enough to find your prince charming, you'll be lucky enough to experience "true love."